This week I had a little project that was well within my skill set, but a bit outside of my normal work. I took the project on with full faith and confidence that I could do a great job at it... and then I started it. Ummmm yeah, the number of iterations of pure crap that I did was depressing. I set aside my computer and walked away more than once. (maybe more than thrice) The only reason I didn't throw in the towel and call my client and apologize for letting them down was that I had already cashed their deposit.
So I kept on plugging away at it. I looked for inspiration, I tried and discarded and tried again. About 2/3 of the way through, BLAM. I created something I loved. I was excited; I was dancing in my chair and humming a happy tune. I was proud of what I had created, and I was having fun!
That is not the first time this has happened to me. I have done this before. Dragged my feet, whined and been terrible when I am taking on something that I am not 100% sure I can do and do well. When I run into trouble and the ideas, don't flow. I always want to quit.
DON'T QUIT. On the other side of that awful, I suck, I can't do that feeling, is all the good stuff.
A feeling of accomplishment, learning, acquiring a new skill, fun, joy... all of them can only happen when you push through all the ick.
So stick with it. I know you will do great!